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so i just had dinner with this awesome guy ! k anyways back to my life stort so i knew i had to make some changes and i did ! i started just keeping myself busy with church activites . one sunday i was sitting in church next to this older man i mean he has to be in his eightys when the sunday school teacher asked him to read something he struggled majorly ...i couldnt help but feel like i should talk to him after church well i attempted to but he didnt want anything to do with me .......after church another person in our ward went and handed me a paper with a bunch of peoples names on it and on there was the old mans Hank!!! so i kinda started stalking him ...i just called him one day and was like hi hank its ruby the new girl in ur ward and he was like how can i help u i asked if i could maybe stop by someday soon just to visit and he said he was kinda busy and didnt know when he would really have time i thought to myself how much activites could a eighty year old man really have going on ??? so i called again and again until he finally ok'ed me coming over so i went and he stayed in this bck room of his house well we talked he told me all about his wife and his family and how he had fallen away for so many years from the church and had recently only gotten back into it and was excited to be sealed to his wife for time and all eternity .....in our discussion i discovered he had never learned to read . i though how sad to never have been able to read ur scriptures or books . so i made it my mission to come and read with him and teach him to read . ...........................................

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ok so i think i left off where braden dunked me ! it was such a hard time in my life after i went back home changed my life completely there was one problem i thought u could do that and keep all the same friends ......but u cant and since i so in love with braden the thought of going to a singles ward was scary :) so even though i wouldn't take part in the partying and drinking my friends at the time would i still went and tried to hang out but it was to hard... ... when u first join the church u know that the adversary will be working on u then u throw ur self into those situations and its even harder i had " friends" pour beer on me and tell me they were going to " beat" the Mormon out of me , my family struggled a little with it my dad tried to show me anti - Mormon videos , but i knew what i felt when i prayed about it was something only i would understand ...... so i would challenge my dad ..( after a few mins of freaking out thinking i was going to hell ) i once asked him " does dna prove that God exists ?" and of course he said " no " so i said " does that mean that He doesnt ...?? " there r somethings in this world we wont get or understand and thats where faith comes in i knew what i believed was true and if i wanted to stick with it i would have to be making some big changes in my life ...........

when my life really began ,

So lets see my life changed when i joined the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints , on July 9th 2006 . Before that i was always wondering about God , life had been one roller coaster of a ride one that seems to go one forever . You start to think really ? how much can one person take ? i was born april 12th 1987 to a mother who was an alcoholic ..... she was wonderful when she was sober, but that was rare , my older brother Josh took care of me and my little brother matt until he couldnt do it anymore he left and it was my turn so i took care of my little brother and twin sisters ........ we had some really hard times kids taking care of kids my dad was never in the picture. Their dad was AMAZING and took me in like his own and has been my dad ever since .... we went with him on the weekends they went to live with him off and on ..... dont get me wrong we love my mom she taught us a lot about family which is funny because thats what got me interested in the church is the family aspect of it ..... she taught us to stick together and at the end of the day family is all u have and thats all tha matters . All the things i saw as a child made me really angry at God i wanted to know why all this had hapened to me and my family .......?? i guess u could say things changed for us on january 2 2000 when my mom passed away . we started going to church we tried so many !!! i remember thinking this is a joke !!!! no matter where we go its not going to make me feel better about not having my mom and im still going to be mad at God !! i would asked questions and would often get the answer " that's just the way it is ...." i knew that couldnt be if God really loved me there had to me more to it .........so we kept going i gradutated high school in 2005 and moved out on my own ..... where i met this kid named braden !! Man were we crazy about each other ! Finally i found someone who loved me for me !! it was great .. one problem he was LDS ..... i had no interest in it at all......until i really thought about it if i really loved him i should probably know a little about what he believed........so hi family introduced me to some people who could helped MISSIONARIES !! it was funny i didnt even know what they were or what they looked like ...... so i started taking lessons from them ! i would ask them questions that i has asked other pastors or preachers and guess what ???? they actually had an answer !! it was great a answer for everything and i started to feel complete i cant even explain it its like something had been missing in my life and i was finaly complete ! Braden baptized me and it was one of the most special nights of my life i didnt know it was possible to feel that close to someone ! well thats that . i will finish some more of my story soon

There is only one me ......

so i just started this whole blogging thing !! im excited i love writing so this is a good way to get some of my feelings out! i am 22 years old i just started a new life in logan utah ! im excited for the person im becoming i love life right now its fun !! my roommate is whitney she is great ! we ave fun thats what its about it so far i will keep u update on my life i will write when i get frustrated or sad !